April 29, 2011
The Good: 16 rounds of chemo in 14 days take its toll both physically and mentally, but then we have what they call “BREAKS” and mine starts today!!!!
I can still feel those demons coursing through my veins even though I’m not popping 7 pills marked “CHEMOTHERAPY” or having weekly infusions at the hospital.
Those demons won’t stop me from dancing, I'm dancing a jig right now! J
The Bad: I’m soooooo tired it’s hard to see through the Zzzzz’s... I wake up from 2 hours of restless dozing and struggle to pry my eyes open; I’m exhausted but can’t sleep. I need to sleep to get through this, why can’t I just have that??? I’m not asking for the whole alphabet, just the Zzzzz’s.
The What the ???: I went for a walk, stopped to pick up a French Vanilla Gelato in a sugar cone and went on my way. This drip and lick under the sun made me very happy, happiness that lasted far beyond the last crunch, who knew $4.00 could pack such a punch!
Lessons Learned: I believe we have some control over our destiny and I have a clear vision of what mine is. Cancer is my present; Cancer has changed me; Cancer will be my past. I can see this... I don’t need lotto 6/49 to make my dreams a reality; I need my vision to come true.
No comments:
Post a Comment