January 7, 2011
The Good: Chemo Treatment #4 - DONE (INSERT CHECK MARK) - that means I'm halfway through, and I've responded well so here's to CHECK, CHECK, CHECK, CHECK and done!!
The Bad: When I look around the Chemo Unit at the different faces it hurts in a way I can't describe. I don't know what they are going through, every treatment and person is different, but I do know it's hard, and some faces have seen very hard times, so much so I wish I could double my dose if that could give them a break. I wonder if over time my face will become one of those that are hard to describe....
The What the ??: You know when someone buys a car and you think you haven't seen many, then all of a sudden you’re seeing them everywhere... I bought the Cancer Car... I knew they existed but now that I have one they are everywhere, I can't go a day without seeing one on the news, hearing about one from a friend, or wondering whether mine will make it through the winter... I wouldn't recommend purchasing one: The warranty sucks, it get's shitty mileage and the paint job is chipped... I was told though that over time it will improve, I could get an extended warranty, the mileage get's better, and then I can get a nice new paint job.... but can you really trust a car salesman :)
Lessons Learned: I bought a T-Shirt that says "I don't give a Fu*K" (there's no star on the t-shirt, I added that for my underage audience and those who find the "F" word offensive)... It doesn't mean I don't care anymore, it means I've realized how many things don't matter, how many things we stress about that aren't worth it, the list is endless of what I now don't give a Fu*ck about, the list is short of what means the world to me...
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