Welcome to my Journey nicknamed "My Moonstone Journey" for no reason other than that's what came to mind, and it started on October 26, 2010 when I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer.

I thought this would be a good way to unload my week's events as a means to maintain my sanity, as well, an avenue for family and friends to see what's going on.

I had no idea what would happen after October 26th, I have no idea what will happen today, I have no idea about tomorrow, and I'm starting to accept that, and it scares me a little less each day approaching the unknown...

If you're reading this, chances are you're one of those people who are holding my hand through this and for that I Thank You...

Friday, October 14, 2011

Hair, Ribbons, Party Hat’s, Souls...

October 14, 2011

The Good: Almost a year of nonexistent hair or a mish mash of patchy spots... today I ventured out feeling naked, vulnerable; I didn’t care while I enjoyed the air on my head, free from hiding, free from being a cancer patient.

The Bad:  I have met so many men and women who are struggling with different forms of cancer, each encounter makes me hate those fucking ribbons even more... cancer is so beyond what a crossed over piece of fabric can portray, and while I realize this is purely symbolic, how can you truly appreciate what it is your supporting when all you see is a soft velvety bright coloured ribbon photographed alongside hopeful cancer patients sporting desperate smiles. 

The What the ???: It’s so hard to put on the party hat and celebrate... cancer treatments are over yet the side effects and memories are never far behind; I want to move on yet I’m constantly reminded that I can’t. 

Lessons Learned: ‎'Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters are seared with scars.' ~Khalil Gibran~

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